sad sad sad
i tear up when i even think about it or read anything about the election.
i am actually ill now. i made myself sick i know.
i've beeen drinking a lot since tuesday nite. but not today. not for a while.
i can't believe i care this much.
i think its mostly cuz my dad voted for bush. even though he said neither choice was that great, it is so hard for me to understand.
he is such a level headed compassionate person. and so fair and intelligent.
it hurts. i hurt.
and the fact that the same percentage of youth voted this time as in 2004 isn't helping either.
we screwed ourselves.
i guess kids just don't care. they live in the suburbs and they don't know any better perhaps.
my mom voted for kerry so i guess they cancelled each other out.
didn't really matter since they live in alabama.
i am having trouble distinguishing the root of my sadness today.
all i know right now is i'm upset. when i hear about how people's parents voted for bush, or even about good things like how moveon.org helped to win some former bush states, my eyes go all watery.
like this from the moveon email i got:
"And our heartache does not diminish our pride in what you've done. We're proud about Wisconsin, where MoveOn volunteers turned out over 27,000 voters and Kerry won by only 11,813 votes.
And New Hampshire, a former
Bush state where we turned out 9,820 of the people on our list and Kerry won by 9,171 votes.
Other groups were working with us in both states, but it's clear volunteers were at least partly responsible for the margin of victory."
my sister is a minister and she thinks bush won becuz people voted out of fear:
"It's debatable whether it's ok for a minister to put a political sign in
their yard.
Well, at the rally where Clinton spoke we got 2 signs that
were great.
Jonathan really wanted to put them in the yard- and we did.
They just said "Vote hope". No candidate's name or political party.
And that's what I want for our country- for people to vote their hopes
instead of their fears.
So much of our lives and actions are guided by
fear and it's terrible. I think Bush won because people are afraid- not
just of terrorism or moral decay, but of different people, and different
thoughts, and change, and uncertainty."
she's so smart. i love her.
i am trying to move into my new place with my 12 awesome and totally supportive roommates and i am sick and weak and weepy.
and i'm not sure listening to The New Year's new record is helping either.
Age Of Conceit from the album The End Is Near by
The New Year
i guess maybe i do need to wallow in this for a minute to get it out. and this record is helping.
rogue wave has gotta be awesome for our show with death cab in reno on sunday.
and then awesome for all the shows actually.
especially seattle since it will be subpop's first time seeing us with our new bass player.
he is so so so good. man can that guy play. i think everyone is going to love him.
i sure do.
zach and pat are sick too and on top of that we've been practicing for 5-8 hours a day to get ready.
i'm not sure if that helps or hurts being sick. its definitely rough on the throat.
things in my world are on the way to being a lot better. i just have to make it through till sunday.
sigh.
you're all ok. we're alright. alright. that's what i always say.
the country is in a bad way, but maybe its got to get much worse before it gets any better.
pass me a tissue please.
love,
golden gram
Posted by goldengram at November 4, 2004 05:05 PM